ive been thinking a lot about change and forgiveness lately. i think about how the person i was five years ago probably couldn’t even dream about where i am now.
im still angry, maybe i always will be, but therapy taught me that anger is just sorrow that is wearing a protective mask.
i know i haven’t always been kind, to myself, to others. so i try to forgive myself and to forgive others too.
my work, this ongoing work is self work, yes, but it also grief work and most importantly it is decolonization work. it is radical work to reject your own programming, it is rebellion.
and no, i never did really fit in anywhere.
just a mixed blood girl trying to jam the jagged puzzle piece of my spirit into a world that wasn’t built for me.
so, i walk a better path now.
and i will walk with you, if you ever want to walk with me for a while.
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“she once was”
writing prompt from @lorrainefaepoetry
hospital vespers 